Well I was now thinking as my first crush is now engaged to an American, my thoughts have recurred it was all but being too young and two... I was merely after her for money that her family had. Well she wasn't an only daughter or anything, it was more an alliance I was trying to get some money.
I'll just have to be honest with myself that I was more or less attracted to some Spanish girl and not my first crush all the more. But some stupid traditions forbade any attractions like that so I was inclined to go after my first crush. Which was really something, I was lying to myself all along and now I'm glad she's getting married to her American fiance. Meanwhile, it pains me to think I have become too picky. =(