Hmmm.... things change don't they? Hee hee. So I've got to admit that after seeing her face again, I can't find myself even a bit admiring her. But I have to admit, it was a crush, not real affection. I don't know. Really. I guess I'm glad she's got somebody else. However, I do admit that maybe perhaps once in my life, I was not lured away by appearances. But now, I feel bad about what happened. Perhaps what caused me to slowly get drifted away by beauty was watching a few episodes of Baywatch and seeing a younger Pamela Anderson or... Was it when I watched MMPR... perhaps. Then again, I remembered my crush on a Spanish girl who resembled Jayme Betcher that I denied for too long because of racism I implanted on myself.:-( Somehow, and I believe it's for the best to let go of my first crush.