Sean Akizuki's Personal Blog

  I've suffered from low self-esteem issues. I had Beast's temper -- getting mad at almost everything if things never went my way. I related to Beast more than Gaston. The reason was because Gaston had the admiration of the crowd. Beast was self-isolated and having skin problems as a teenager NEVER HELPED. Teenage years are pretty much like I want to grow up and not grow up -- at the same time! I saw the inner beast that needed to be squashed. I felt I needed that fabled beauty back as a TEENAGER. It should be something to think about.  And of course that awkward incident... This reminds me of a couple of women I felt could "break me out of my curse". I think my most hilarious one was with a girl who resembles Shin Hye Sun. I no longer found her pretty later on. However, what I can't deny is that she's an incredibly smart woman -- perhaps even the most intelligent girl on campus! Some found her pretty but others never did. I'd say that I was attracted to h...

  Odd couples aren't exactly uncommon, right? Well, weird not because of the physical mismatch but because of the age gap. Vanessa Hessler's husband is 29 years older than she is. The marriage happened I think last 2014 or 2015 as they now have a five-year-old daughter named Catarina. I noticed she had a knack for older men such as her late boyfriend Mutassim Gadaffi who was 15 years her senior.  I think the whole stepmother-stepdaughter relationship can be weird. I think her stepdaughter Giuilla Nunnari is only in her late 20s and she's in her early 30s. Vanessa marrying a man with a daughter just like a sister feels weird. Yet, she somehow gets along with her stepdaughter. I do feel weird that somehow if you can get along with a stepchild who's just like a sibling since you're married to a person old enough to be your parent. Though I feel her marriage here is much better than if she ended up with the son of the late tyrant Muammar Gadaffi. It's nice to see th...

There are many odd-looking couples and they don't have to be always ugly and pretty -- you can still have two good-looking people from different races or maybe add a height gap of nearly or at least a foot. I thought about my characterization of Andrew Gray dates a 5'1 lady played by Maaya Uchida. The names of the characters are Troy Toshiba Philips and Asuka Kang. Troy is an obvious eccentric, fan of Asian and American stuff and being bi-racial gets him into too many places at once. The history of the DVD as a Japanese invention had Philips a German company involved in its creation -- hence my character's middle name is Toshiba and his surname is Philips. His love interest Asuka was born in Japan but has no Japanese ancestry. Her Chinese-American parents were in Japan while her mother was pregnant and ended up having to deliver her there. She is of Mensa genius intellect (and a physicist-chemist) but severely lacks common sense -- a contrast to her love interest Troy...

I hate to admit it but I've been a fan of Beauty and the Beast for many years. I always find myself having Beast's temperament towards almost everyone. I always found myself attracted to certain women for beauty or having both beauty and brains. It reminded me how much I depreciated myself in high school over a woman who I thought was so hot when she was not (but she certainly was really intelligent) or how I actually had feelings for a simple-looking girl who had Belle's attitude. I just thought why Beauty and the Beast may not work in real life. Let's put aside the magic spells and just think of how Beast's attitude may be the reason why he's cursed that way. He's probably still biologically human as far as the story is concerned.

When I think about some attractive girls I know who have unattractive (but not really that ugly) mothers, I thought about why's the trope may or may not work itself out in fiction but it's reality. We've got handsome guys with unattractive girls. And I always think of some people who are born out of that kind of relationship. It reminds me of two pretty girls who have both handsome dads and unattractive mothers. I guess father's genes are usually that strong to think how the dad's handsome DNA converts into beautiful DNA for their daughters. One person I know who looks like Amy Jo Johnson and another who looks like Rin Takanashi both have handsome dads and highly unattractive mothers. I don't find it all too surprising that happens because somebody's genes tend to be more dominant. So it's not really too much of a question if an unattractive woman gives birth to a beautiful daughter because of the handsome guy or if the reverse happens. It's all a...

I always thought about the idea that not so many people appreciate reading these days.  I mean, most people prefer a website if it had one or two pictures.  I just thought about what Belle said in Beauty and the Beast, "Some people use their imagination." to a rather boorish Gaston.  So I always thought about my type of girl, personality-wise would be someone like Belle.  I usually like the nose stuck in a book type of lady . Why do I feel books are like water?  I'll admit people can learn faster through video presentations and I enjoy watching videos and pictures but as said, some people use their imagination.  When I started reading some classics like William Shakespeare and Victor Hugo, I started to use my imagination on how things happened.  When I start reading interesting books explaining certain topics, not having visuals give me a freedom of imagination how certain people look like.  Even when I enjoy having pictures but I would prefer ...

Whenever I rewatch Dragon Ball Z in the later episodes, I always thought my favorite character was Vegeta for the reason well, I can relate to him. I have my ego fragility, my desire to become better than anyone or that I am simply a temperamental man who always wants to be right all the time. Now I always thought one of the craziest couples ever done in Dragon Ball Z has to be Vegeta x Bulma. I'll admit I always compared myself to Vegeta especially with how I easily get jealous whenever somebody exceeds me or I'm as stubborn mule myself.... fortunately I am not that stubborn to authority but I would admit, like Vegeta I am prone to blowing up a tantrum whenever I am pricked. I always thought nothing was funnier than the fact I found a girl like Bulma really attractive. Like Bulma, she was unusually intelligent and attractive, almost everything I could want in a woman but she was just as high strung as I am. When I think of my tendency to compare my life to fiction, I always...

I could easily overlook Belle's beauty for her inner character.  Somehow, there are other prettier Disney princesses but something about Belle magnifies beyond her good looks.  It's the fact she's portrayed as a geeky, nerdy girl who loves reading.  She is also a very kind person and she won't fall for the likes of Gaston.  Although my only complaint is her lack of glasses... although it's possible she's a near sighted person.  So how did that affect me? Remembering the time I played Harvest Moon: Back to Nature, my ideal bride was Mary.  She's the librarian and daughter of the gardener Basil.  So Mary dresses up like Belle and actually, she's quite pretty without her glasses.  So pretty much, Mary in Harvest Moon is a girl whose nose is pretty much stuck in a book.  In my case, I soon started to think of looking for girls who were bookworms.  I always thought about it that it's hard to find a bookworm these days. I always thought ...

Here's my idea of how to "break" the mold of Beauty and the Beast.  Maybe we just need to start removing the supernatural or science fiction, maybe just focus on reality.  My idea is where the girl isn't your character like Belle inside out- she is Belle personality-wise but an average looking girl who can stand against bullies which despite her lack of attraction, caught her the most unwanted suitor of all- the leading guy.  The "Beast" is handsome on the outside but starts off with a bad character, but he is no Gaston, he doesn't flaunt about his appearance but he fools around with girls (because of something in his past).  When he runs into the Belle of the story, he starts to be attracted to her inner goodness though he teases her several times, he finds himself falling for her inner goodness as the inner beast is killed.  Well this is where things rise- true beauty comes from within.  On the other hand, the "Beast" aware of his true feeli...

Just my thoughts on a deluded man and his delusional romance... This is how the guy looks like... But this how he thinks he looks like... Too far fetched huh? Now for the girl he likes... This is how she looks like but he thinks she looks like... It's even more far fetched because... These two don't like anything alike! Nor do these two look anything alike! In my own thoughts, I see ugly people and pretty people as they are with little or no shock value at all except for the severely deformed or stunningly pretty. =P  It's only normal a deluded ugly man would find an ugly woman to look too different from her real appearance.  Now that's not love, just delusion because if you love an ugly person, you are aware they're ugly and see them as they are and still like them!

Here are some crazy love stories that I might have written: 1.) Dolor- The story of an elderly beggar woman named Dolores who first falls for another beggar her age named Alfonso, however she is strangely being infatuated over by a man who's young enough to be her son named Remy as she is old enough to be his mother.  Problems start to develop when the old beggar gets caught for street gambling, the man young enough to be her son enters into her life.  However this results in a rather strange clash when her boyfriend Alfonso catches her in an improper act with Remy.  Can Dolor decide the love of her heart or will she be in tragedy?  Will Alfonso forgive Dolores for her infidelity or will he return home to the mountains?  Can Remy overcome his unusually stupid infatuation with a woman old enough to be his mother that leads him to erratic actions? 2.) Where the Mentally Ill Goes- The story of an obese mentally ill beggar woman from the slums due to her rugby s...

Here's a list of combinations I think could be hilarious if you do them... Tough rebel guy x tough chick.  Just a thought on it what if a guy like Gai Yuki decides to flirt with a girl like Sakura Nishihori.  While I can't explore that concept in Super Sentai vs. Nickelodeon because Joe Hayasaka (Gai's son made by me as a legacy character to his late father who died before he was born and grew up with his mom Ako) with his relationship with Tori Vega, but the concept can be explored in future Tokusatsu or fantasy J-Drama series. Emo and cheery.  So okay while Burai and Mei is nonexistent in Zyuranger but why not make characters based on them and pair them?  Now don't start mentioning Tommy and Kimberly on my face because Tommy is nowhere near Burai in any way especially when it comes to personality.  Burai is way too serious.  Now what if we get these two types to try and fall for each other?  Hee hee.  Now I'll just have to read Chris X's Z...

I thought that chocolates (except for diabetic women) would make good Valentine's day present.  So I pretty much had the thought I've had a few chocolate traumas but gotten over them.  So I just had my thoughts... Well I've given some chocolates to my ex-girlfriend who looks like Yuuri in Timeranger.  Although the romance is already OVER, but it doesn't mean I've ceased from being friends with her.  On the other hand... Provided these elderly women aren't diabetic and still are in good condition, they might be the best recipients of chocolates too like from their children, grandchildren or just from anybody who cares aside from flowers. Chocolates aren't always a courtship thing.  Well in my case, chocolates for Victoria Justice's grandmother for being the sweet old woman she is and some hearts for Victoria Justice. ;)

Looking at this fake Emma Roberts pregnant photo and her admitting it, I just thought that maybe she's not ready for motherhood yet or something.  But my main thought on this one is that, she has inspired me and probably many more to try new tricks on Photoshop...  hmmm what will I do with photoshop next?

Here's one of my favorite older songs back int he late 80s-early 90s from Shakin' Stevens called "You Drive Me Crazy" which also had a rendition from Ronnie Harwood.  The lyrics goes as... You know, Baby, when you're in my arms, I can feel your loving magic charms You drive me crazy, you drive me crazy. And when Im looking in those big blue eyes, I start afloating round in paradise, You drive me crazy, you drive me crazy. Heaven must have sent you down, Down for you to give me a thrill, Every time you touch me Every time you hold me, My heart starts speeding like a train on a track. I love you, Baby, and it's plain to see, I love you, honey, it was meant to be You drive me crazy, you drive me crazy, oh.

After seeing the "Vampire Effect" for some time, I got interested wit the movie "Vampires Suck" starring Jenn Proske and Matt Lanter.  Well it does have a lot of goofs like vampires surviving daylight or all the comedic scenes.  Of course, I just love the chemistry between Becca (the mortal) and Edward (the vampire) to aside from being a beauty and the beast story (actually Edward is both beauty and beast considering he's a vampire) and how they both earn their "happy ending" where Becca becomes a vampire which was quite different from the Vampire Effect's ending where the vampire chooses to live the humans.

It can be true that you can have a contradictory attraction.  An example in the works of fiction is that Poison Ivy has some attraction to Batman despite the fact the two are also enemies.  Minus the super powers (blah blah blah) but it can also happen like in these few examples... An Oriental guy who normally has a dislike (or even racial prejudice against whites) will fall for one and feel that tight or... Or you don't like bad cooking yet you're in love with one... Or we do have you're attracted to your enemy who hates you too much.   Okay that's just a few and I'm encountering several of them! :P

Here are some types of couples that just DON'T MATCH: The overly serious with the cheery type... Between two people who have the same values that oppose each other like both are high-strung or selfish A slacker and a serious student (not exactly overly serious) can't get along since there's no common ground to help look for income. Two people with different views of justice... Or a hero and a villain... That's just all! :P

Seriously it gets to me when I heard how somebody would actually fall for a mentally ill woman just because she was well (censored) on the road which he considers as "eye candy" regardless of her appearance.  It kinda gets scary to think why somebody would want to date with a mentally ill person, even if the mentally woman is most likely going to maul him or even KILL HIM in just a few seconds.  And for a person to walk around the road (censored) and not being aware of their state is a great sign of mental illness.  And yes, these people are not safe to be with.  In fact, even some people who are deemed insane to a certain extent would know better than to do stuff that are far too much! Mentally ill people are most likely to have a stronger grip than those who are sane.  A muscular bodybuilder or a heavy labor worker may not even stand a chance against a mentally ill woman's strength and savagery too. So just forget about that stupid plan because it's plan ...

I just wrote about myself looking for the perfect woman which is but stupid making me unable to move on, now it's time to get rid of the "perfect man" off the head of the ladies.  Why?  If there's no perfect woman, there is NO perfect man.  I can guarantee that.  Even every man who looks like they have it all have their character flaws. Like it or not some men may be rich, handsome and good looking but some of them can be jerks.  Others may be handsome and kind but they're not very rich.  Oh boy you can't have it all can you?  As said, men should always just get the real them to be positive, not to be perfect or they'll just reach frustration.  People should ignore women looking for the perfect man because they are unrealistic, vain, selfish and above all THEY WILL JUST HURT THE MEN WITH THEIR MYRIADS OF IMPOSSIBLE DEMANDS.  Seriously some of the greatest English students are poor in Mathematics and vice versa.  Even the valedictorian...